Healing [hi lɪŋ]: The act or process of regaining health
These days, it seems like there is an abundance of resources out there trying to help us live our best lives. These resources could help with physical and emotional wellness, but either way, we have started to evolve and take care of our health.
Maybe the pandemic helped us all to slow down a bit, but healing is more than something short-term. Much like anything in life, healing is not linear and one can take many paths before eventually being "well" again.
I wanted to talk about healing because I want to share my experience with you, and to remind you that no matter where you are in your journey, you are not alone.
About 5 weeks ago, I went to go see a naturopath for the first time regarding my skin, and consequently got diagnosed with bleach poisoning. I have since documented my journey through my own words on social media.
In that time, I have felt extreme highs and extreme lows, but more of the latter to be honest. My healing process has tested my faith in myself and has made me feel lesser than on many occasions. I wish I could say I was always optimistic, but a lot of the times, I had a hard time getting out of bed and everything just seemed like a chore.
Eventually, I started getting better and the comments about how red and irritated my skin looked stopped. What's funny is that this is the time when I started feeling better about myself, although I had a renewed sense of gratitude for my skin.
When your body changes, your mind changes. It is all about the mind-body connection and I have realized that this plays a big part in our lives. I have recently discovered the importance of listening to my body, and this was really put to the test over these past fews weeks. I learned that there was a certain duality to being well, that when I was feeling better I was scared of it all coming crashing down. Would I revert back to the way I was before? Would I sabotage myself and my progress?
After just going to see my doctor today, he told me that my thyroid was doing much better and my body was managing stress a lot better too (never knew that was a problem for me, go figure!) He said that my bleach poisoning was taken care of, but my healing journey was not over yet. I had to recover from my sensitivity to Propanol/Isopropyl Alcohol. What is that, you may ask? It's the main ingredient in Purell.
So I am now on another medication until October and he said things should be cleared up by then. However, one thing I have learned about my healing journey is that it is always ongoing. We can't expect to wake up one day and be instantly better. Everything takes time, and we need to deal with the changes as they come. I have no idea what is going to happen in the next month, but I hope that it will help me get better.
On the road to healing, I discovered that everyday should not be taken for granted. Nothing is permanent, which can either be seen as comforting or scary. Ultimately, we need to take the good with the bad, and try to remember that these tough times will not last.
In the end, healing is up to us. We can either let it get us down, or we can choose to keep trying to see the good in everyday, and being grateful for the good and bad days.